Sunday, June 29, 2008
Oh Lord,
i've never really prayed before.
and i've cursed and sweared at you,
blaming you for everything that has happened in my life.
i guess,
its of no doubt that my this little prayer would go unanswered.
so much has happened.
i look back and i find myself being a complete scum.
the people i loved,
they seem so distant now.
the reflection i see now,
it holds a monster.
i'm tired of being so negative all the time.
i dont want to be so angry, so depressed.
sorrow is an ugly demon,
which tears my soul inside out.
i've been crying at night,
alone on my bed.
he whom has become a part of me,
tells me he no longer needs me in his life one night.
devastated, i am.
but i knew i was to blame.
downhill it all went.
to a point where he detested me,
ignored and avoided my presence.
it claws upon me.
but what could i possibly do.
i've lost faith in all my other friendships.
i dont want to go through the hurt once more.
crossroads at a junction:
to let go,
or blindly hope that things would pick up.
which i know he will never come back to me.
i need directions Lord,
i need signals,
a sign.
my heart's screaming for a new life.
Amen.
;
9:14 AM
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Saturday, June 28, 2008
when the world turns their backs on you.
take a look at the mirror,
for who you are.
and you could just mouth the words at your refelction.
fuck you.
;
9:23 AM
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Wednesday, June 25, 2008
painkillers.
besides the physical hurt,
if only they could numb the pain in me as well.
;
9:31 AM
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Sorrow drips into my heart through a pinhole,
Just like a faucet that leaks and there is comfort in the sound.
But while you debate half empty or half full
It slowly rises,
your love is gonna drown.
;
9:26 AM
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Saturday, June 21, 2008
Oh sweet lungs, dont fail me now.
these scar tissues,
they hurt him with every step he takes,
his shoulder burns,
with every move he makes.
regaining the power he once had,
it never seemed so hard.
but he knows.
he has to press on.
he's weak.
but he has found strength from within.
stay strong boy.
the story has a new chapter.
;
9:33 AM
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Monday, June 16, 2008
Hands into a fist,
Static in my head.
Open up my eyes,
Flooded with daylight.
Another sleepless night turns color black and white.
The storm is letting up,
but it won't die.
If you weren't wrong, was I?
Your picture still remains,
but I wonder are you still the same?
Time to close my eyes,
Forget about this mess.
Tried to fix this tragic loss of innocence.
But how can I forget,
The things I have inside,
When everything is dead?
I never wanted it to hurt more than it should.
I hope you're satisfied,
I never could.
;
9:53 AM
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Thursday, June 12, 2008
and they said silence was golden.
Loneliness never shined like this.
Caught between the stars,
A well lit drowning.
Darkness mocks me with
A broken compass.
So I swim in a sea of distress,
Broken down, and helpless.
;
11:13 AM
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