Sunday, November 30, 2008
sometimes, the ultimate solace can only be found from within.
your words,
the things you do,
it touches my heart,
churning an overwhelming sense of this undescribable feeling,
as tears of nostalgia, they stream,
down this forlorn face.
you created in me,
this feeling once more.
something that i once lost.
thanks GF. (:
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9:58 AM
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Saturday, November 29, 2008
and they said silence was golden.
Loneliness never shined like this.
Caught between the stars,
A well lit drowning.
Darkness mocks me with
A broken compass.
So I swim in a sea of distress,
Broken down, and helpless.
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11:17 AM
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Friday, November 28, 2008
a blend of fear and passion.
children church camp was really mind blowing man!
i arrived with anticipation and fear,
but was filled with so much excitement at the end.
though i'm new, i still got to know more people! (:
PHOO!
teamed up with xin fei to lead ROTI PRATA!
really awesome kids man.
theres this lil, cute guy called urlwin.
he always holds my hand, follows me around and hugs me!
HAHAH!
amazing people lah!
yea, dunking machine was cool man.
but not the clearing up part.
my arms are aching because of all the carrying of heavy stuff.
wah lao eh, everyone is like, ' EH, WE NEED HELP CARRYING STUFF!'
then some joker will ALWAYS say, ' JT! STRONG RIGHT!'
and there goes countless pails, tables and chairs up and down the stairs.
hahaha, stupid people lah.
A VALUABLE LESSON LEARNT:
DO NOT, AND I MEAN DO NOT,
EVER MAKE FUN OF PEOPLE,
WHEN SOMETHING FUNNY HAPPENS TO THEM.
there is such a thing called karma.
i'm serious.
i'm sure jordan, marcus, chelsea and me know it best.
HAHA!
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9:39 AM
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Tuesday, November 25, 2008
and tonight, i'm on my knees.
i feel blinded,
i feel deafened,
i feel starvation.
i am empty.
tempations, aggravations,
pulling me away from You.
the devil, he calls and beckons,
like the pied piper, melancholy enticing.
my lost heart follows in this false sense of direction,
only to be led in a bottomless abyss,
swept away by the waves of despair,
sinking into a darkened path.
so this is my prayer today:
instill in me a Given Vision,
a carrot placed in front of a starving being.
fill me up spiritually in whole,
curbing my hunger for worldly desires.
i come to you humbled, with an open heart.
make me your servant tonight.
give me directions,
on this broad plain of emptiness.
guide me to the light at the other end.
Amen.
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8:57 AM
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Monday, November 24, 2008
a man without a future will always return to his past.
the past haunts,
like a savage beast hungered,
its shadows overcast.
its paws rearing over its prey,
creating an aura of immense fear and trauma over Him.
His eyes bloodshot with trepidation,
a wrecked memory and a broken soul,
chained to a past as heavy as the weight of a boulder.
the overwhelming sorrows were the Coup de grâce to his mind.
so pick up these shattered fragments of his soul,
torn apart by an ungly past,
and to piece them together,
only to crumble again to dust.
i am only human,
everyone has got a past,
everyone has got scars to show.
BUT a merry heart serves as medicine to a wounded spirit.
live in the light of faith,
for God can only dwell in a positive life and mind,
but foils in the old and the negative.
heal me.
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6:03 AM
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Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Helicopter.
North to south,
Empty.
Running on,
Bravado.
are you hoping for a miracle?!
LOL. tues was damn fun!
woke up super early to make water bombs at ruo en's house.
it was quite retarded lah, was quite afriad at first, course i didnt know alot of people there.
after a while, we were all laughing and joking.
FELLOWSHIP! (:
games were awesomely fun!
had help from cheryl, yu cong and jedric.
BUT IN THE END I MESSED UP THE GAMES STATION.
HAHAHAH!
then water bombs fight began!
super funny, i tell you.
after awhile, everyone started throwing water bombs at me!
we ended up with me emptying a pail of water on ruo en and jiaxin!
LOL.
oh wells, it just feels great lah.
like, i'm still new in church and everything,
and i was given this oppurtunity as Game Master.
HAHHA! kinda cool.
everyone's happy!
OH YEA.
i'm currently addicted to Helicopter by Bloc Party.
its so much better than cocaine man!
HAHA!
i gotta feed this burning addiction in me! (:
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4:27 AM
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Sunday, November 16, 2008
maturity does not come by age, it comes when we decide to accept responsibilities.
strike it event was funfunfun!
LOL.
owned in zone F catergory, and won 10 dollars nike vouchers!
can buy another nike waterbottle!
sajc soccer team fierce siol!
while i was playing,
i experienced this feeling that was indescribable.
it was like, though we lost, the smiles and laughter on everyone's faces was something so soothing,
so much unlike the usual rugby trainings where people pushed the blame to one another.
now people know me as the STAR PENALTY SAVING GOALKEEPR.
HAHAH!
TYCO ONE LAH! (:
yea, everything's cool.
except the fact that i have a badly sprained toe.
SUPER SWOLLEN LAH!
AHHH! tmr still got sentosa, tues got event with the northview kids!
me and wayne! BROS MAN! (:
LOL NICK!
TALL PEOPLE. TSK.
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8:55 AM
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Friday, November 14, 2008
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7:47 AM
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Tuesday, November 11, 2008
my stupid mouth.My stupid mouth,
Has got me in trouble,
I said too much again.
Oh, another social casualty,
Score one more for me How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head.
Oh, what's a boy to do I guess he better find one soon.
I played a quick game of chess with the salt and pepper shaker,
And I could see clearly,
An indelible line was drawn Between what was good,
what just slipped out and what went wrong.
I'm never speaking up again,
It only hurts me.
I'd rather be a mystery,
Than she desert me.
Oh I'm never speaking up again,
Starting now...
One more thing.
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard,
But it's all because of this desire.
I just wanna be liked, I just wanna be funny.
Looks like the jokes on me,
So call me captain backfire.
I'm never speaking up again,
It only hurts me I'd rather be a mystery,
Than she desert me.
Oh I'm never speaking up again,
Starting now.
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9:09 AM
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Wednesday, November 5, 2008
GOD-isability vs. Disability.
the greatest disablility,
is not the lack of limbs,
paralysis, or broken bones.
No.
fear is, the greatest disability.
it cripples our soul, mind, and body.
limting our thoughts and actions within a box.
having faith, is putting hope and believing in something that we cannot see.
faith conquers fear, but with fear how can we have faith?
this is where faith comes in.
the greatest joy, is in being content with what we have,
discover and live the God-given purpose that we are planted with.
service with nick vujicic was a-w-e-s-o-m-e!
was really blessed, and was delighted to see ken accepting Christ.
POWER!
ONE MORE WEEK JT! (:
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8:56 AM
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