i'm all black&white.

the bucket list.

"I can't claim to understand the measure of a life, but I can tell you this: I know that when he died, his eyes were closed and his heart was open."

watching this heartwarming movie,
about two complete strangers who fought cancer,

came together as close friends,

tought each other lessons about life,
spent their remaining months of their lives fulfiling a list of things that they want to do before they actually 'kick the bucket'.

it makes me think and reflect about the people who impacted my life,
friends i love.

after the movie,
somehow i just want to reach out and give them a hug,
and tell them how much they mean to me.

but some, are far too away from me.

Rico.

thanks rico, for being the first person to really touch my life.

to show me what it feels like to be loved by a brother.

the never failing encouragements and words of wisdom that brought me to my feet.

thank you. (:

Daniel Joshua.

thanks for standing by me for 8 full years,

going through all the shit with me.

thanks for being one i can relate to,

and giving a nice hug at the end of every long day.

cheers, and i hope our friendship would still remain strong.

ASS. (:

Hendricks.

the one with undying love.

firstly, i apologise for the ugly past,

for putting you through so much.

and yet, you still continued to be there for me in times of need.

i really appreciate everything you've done. (:

Jordan!

the medicine to my pessimism!

for every negative thought i have,

you never fail to encourage me with a positive word of yours.

thank you for changing my life,

and allowing me to take a new attitude towards it.

i realy wanna thank you for bringing me closer to God. (:

Nick yau.

firstly,

i want to apologise for all the selfish things that i did or said to you in the past.

and those times that you put up with me and gave in to me.

i'm sorry.

it's no wonder why your treating me like that now,

with all your cold replies.

and i've been living with alot of regrets,

though you might not believe or trust me anymore.

i guess you probably hate me now,

or it might be due to the peer pressure around you.

and somehow i just miss your presence.

i'm not asking you to forgive me.

i just want to thank you for those great times,

you were by my side,

when i was down, insecure, and injured.

you never failed to make me smile with a warm hug of yours.

to love and be loved.

you still mean alot to me.

thanks boy. (:

how can i stand here with you,
and not be moved by you.

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