Friday, January 9, 2009
if only time flew like a dove,
faster then how i'm falling fast now.
my mind is completely screwed man.
feeling damn stressed out.
'o' levels results.
what ifs, what ifs, what ifs.
ah, i didnt get to play much in today's match.
maybe its God's way of protecting me from injuries.
but i felt like shit on the inside.
theres something in me thats telling me i musnt lose my starting postion.
gosh, the past emotions are surfacing once more,
i MUST get rid the inferiority complex in me.
and we're pretending as though we cant see one another.
shifty eyes, and ignorance.
my heart's hardened with guilt,
how much i want to just start anew.
how much i want to shout it out,
that i'm no longer who i used to be.
but you wouldnt let me speak,
you wouldnt listen.
you dont seem to want to have anything to do with me.
you left me with a heart chained with a weight,
hardened, and left hanging dry.
as i await the day,
your smile or a word of 'hi',
shall set me free.
oh, i pray for the death of the term called strangers.
gahh, i cant seem to dwell in the Lord's presence at home for the past few days.
it feels like something hindering me, pulling me away.
i need to be recharged in the spirit.
SATURDAY IN CHURCH, HERE I COME!
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9:37 AM
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