Thursday, October 15, 2009
At the end of the day.
From the beginning of the year up till now, my life in jc has taught me many things and experiences alike. My eyes were open to the bitches and bastards, the hypocrites and bootlickers, and who your actual true friends were. I dare say life in SAJC has been tough, pretty much a stuggle for me to keep up with the hectic schedules, considering there's rugby and my serving in church. I finally understood the meaning of being humble over these period of times, when complacency could actually cost your team the semi finals of the rugby game. I dare say God rebuked and reminded me a couple of times to be humble throughout this year, to be thankful of what i'm blessed with and learn how to appreciate tose blessings.
Yet, Theres clearly a fine line between what can you can do, and how much can you actually do. So much so that i've found myself studying pretty hard consistently throughout the year, but always came close to passing all my exam papers. Come Friday, i might be presented with a tough dilemna when i get those results back.
To be honest, i was really touched when Jannah came and hugged me and told me that she would cry if i really had to retain. But a man is a prideful one, i must not shed any tears on that day. No, i musnt.
I've been thinking. And i feel that i really owe nichoas an apology. That i kinda dragged him into the shit in JC, hen he could have make the best out of his abilities in poly. Now he's facing retaining as well. Fuck you JT.
But whether or not i have to face making the decision, i just pray that all that happens, is in God's will for me.
Ah, theres so much thats tearing me inside out now.
But no, i will not cry.
i musn't.
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8:31 AM
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